I am sitting in the hospital waiting to be admitted. Feeling very nervous. Am I doing the right thing? Will it be everything I hope it will be? Only time will tell.

Tick tock not long to go, in about an hour I will be in surgery changing my life!

Goodbye old me with no self confidence and bad eating habits and hello to my new friend for life. I shall name him bandit.

I can now blog from my iPhone so I will keep you up to date during my hospital stay!

WOW! After a little hiccup I am now only 1 sleep away from changing my life! Tomorrow is the day I get my gastric banding! How am I feeling you ask? A little … wait no a LOT nervous! I could hardly sleep last night so I am sure tonight will be worse.

I have been waiting a few months now for the banding and now I am wondering am I really ready for it? I know I am and I need to be but all the research and thinking and talking about it has made it seem surreal. Like I am talking about someone else and now it has just dawned on me that it is me that this is happening to. It is me who is going to be banded, me who is about to change my life and become thin again, me who will be able to walk into a regular store and not worry about the sales people giving me the “you know we don’t stock your size look” …. Amazingly all of that really hasn’t hit until now!

But through all the nerves I am feeling like a little kid on Christmas eve. I am getting the biggest gift anyone could ever give someone tomorrow! It’s Christmas in July!!

So tonight I will pack my bag and wait for them to call my name at 12:30pm tomorrow!

Wish me luck!