Well it’s been a while …. a long while in fact.

I am the perfect testament that a band is not a quick fix for weight loss! It still requires hard work and dedication.

Time to come clean ……

So I have stalled, well not really stalled I guess gone backwards. Stalling would mean I am trying with no progress. Over the past 5 or so months I have really slipped back into my old habits. I have not been for another fill since I last posted about it and I have been eating really badly. The good thing is I have not put on any weight. Actually I have lost a tiny bit more. I now weight 93.8kg. So I am at a loss total of 21.2kg since my banding. Which is fabulous, but I should be at my goal weight by now.

Today is it, I went and bought new gym clothes, I have paid $200 and signed up to www.12wbt.com and I am ready to reclaim my life and reclaim my band!

A lot has contributed to me going backwards on my weight loss road. While they are valid things, they really are just excuses.

I have decided to change banding doctors and I have removed all references on my blog to the doctor who did my surgery. I am so disappointed in the aftercare I have received and really contribute that as a large part of my downfall. My doctor is so hard to get in to see, his reception staff are rude and unapproachable and it is a stressful thing just to build the courage to call and make an appointment for an adjustment. So I decided to find someone new. I have my first appointment next Friday so we will see how it goes.

In the mean time I am starting the 12 Week Body Transformation. I am doing it to win. Simple. I think if I make it competitive I will succeed. Doing it for myself hasn’t worked because I still have emotional and mental baggage to deal with. Things that I have touched on in previous posts. I really think I am scared to be thin, I am scared that I will have nothing to hide behind. It is something I am not sure how I can overcome. So this challenge is about the thrill of winning! I want the prizes and I want the thrill of being named the best transformation! The best part is hubby is doing it too!

This will be the first of many posts over the next few days. I have a lot to get out and a lot to catch you up on.

I am sorry to all the readers who supported me and followed my blog. I am sorry I let you down.

Jen xx