I could easily lie to you all and tell you how great I did day one on shakes, but this blog is going to be honest so I am going to tell the truth! I failed. Last night at about 11pm I had a brownie and ice cream! I know, I know but it was really yummy! LOL

I really hate shakes, I just can’t stand them and it’s even worse when you can’t have one normal meal a day. Every other time I have done them I have been able to have a normal meal which helps. But this diet is so strict. The only real food allowed is vegetables and fruit which really is not that fun! I like fruit and vegetables but I never feel satisfied. I need carbs! I need meat! I need sugar! LOL

Ok so this shake diet is making me go crazy, but I have to do it. I would love to lose a little weight before the surgery and I am worried if I don’t do this diet my surgery wont happen or it will be harder than it should be.

I had a shake yesterday for breakfast and then I went back to bed at lunch time and slept till 4pm so I missed lunch. I had a bowl of apricot halves when I woke up and then a shake for dinner. But all I could think about was food! It doesn’t help when my husband is eating everything in sight including my packet of Tim Tims! So I caved and had brownie and ice cream before bed. I almost went to bed without it but my willpower is just not there. I always do it, my famous words are “Ahh F*ck it”. I also can’t stop at just a little, when I break a diet I am like a little kid and I go overboard! I ate half of the big brownie (it was huge, like 4 normal brownies together) and 3 scoops of ice cream! So yes you can say I F*cked it!

So day two is here, I have had my first shake and I have to do this right! I will not cheat today, I promise …. wish me luck! God knows I will need it!